Lyme Disease and Relentless Jedi Warriors: May the Force Be With Us
Lyme disease forces you to start right where you are. There’s no cleaning up, no starting from a blank slate, no chance at perfection. The fancy finishing touches, the condiments, sparkles and centerpieces, all quickly become distant memories (if you can even remember them at all).
No matter what it is, no matter what day — you just have to put the key in the engine and start driving. Use a fake starlit frame on your diver’s license (or profile pic) if you have to, but figure out a way to get your body, at least, back into the galaxy.
Which brings me to right here, right now.
Here is not a perfect place (my son’s bedroom), and now is not a perfect time (early morning without my contact lenses, so I can barely see the computer screen). But now is all I have, now is when I sense a few precious drops of energy to get a few words out of my soul — so now is when I must begin the chronicle of this journey.
“Must” may be the wrong word. I really don’t “must” anymore. “Must” has become very heavy, very threatening of a concept. CPL, or chronic persistent Lyme, will definitely kick the “must” out of you. While I always lived by “must,” and “must” may very well have contributed to the gravity of my illness at its peak, these days, I am much more content with “try”.
So what of Yoda’s sage advice, which used to be my motto? “Do or do not — there is no try…”
The words of the lovable, stoic guru echo in my mind, and I relish the innocent memory of wanting to follow him. If Yoda had been selling swampland, or a magic pill “guaranteed” to amp up my NRF2 detox pathways, I’d have been all in.
Even as I fumble with a Lyme-colored light saber, I believe in Yoda, and resolve somewhere inside the spirochete-spun cobwebs of my aching but well-trained Stanford mind, “OK, Yoda. I will ‘do,’ then. But I won’t ‘must do’ any more… at least not until I can.”
“Goooood, Padawan,” I almost hear him reply. “Here and now, until no more you can.” Mystically, I accept his challenge, and the ailing Jedi wannabe inside me determines to write right here, right now, until I run out of gas, which is sure to be soon. I can feel the Dark Side’s energy-sapping wave looming overhead. This particular battle may be coming to a close, but I sense a type of satisfaction that will eventually lead to galactic victory. Until the next round, Lyme, and be warned: “The Force is strong with this one. Use the Force, Luke…”
The Meaning of the Green Light Saber
“Green is considered the second most common lightsaber, behind blue. Peace is perhaps the strongest representation of the green lightsaber. The Jedi knights that wield this color lightsaber value concord, and prefer a universe in which the inhabitants live harmoniously. They are also known to demonstrate vast amounts of goodwill, and carry themselves with a friendly, helpful, and cooperative attitude. Lastly, the green lightsaber color holds a strong affinity with nature.” (https://ultrasabers.com/holocron/what-is-the-meaning-of-the-green-lightsaber/)